Stress Week

I know dah lame I tak update blog nie. Why suddenly hari nie tetiba rase nak update. OK MD is now in Perth for 1 week. So, to make life easier (ade ke term tu..) I decided to stay in a hotel near my office and also near to Muadz's nursery. Reason?? Pepagi I bole terpacak by 7.30 kt nursery Muadz tu and then shoot ke SU untuk hantar Alya and Myra to Qdees and drive back to office. So, I would reach office paling2 pon 9.15 am. Kalau dah masuk lambat tuh xkanla nak balik 5.30 kan? So, tenghari i fetch AlyaMyra and park sekejap nursery kt bawah ofis i nie. RM30/child for half day. But, due to hari tu I kene gastric attack, my parents volunteer untuk fetch the kids and send them kat lobby hotel. From Monday until yesterday, I was on MC. So, today lepas I tapau MCD I tunggu kat lobby for them. Then terus naik bilik lunch dengan diorg. I beli nuggets for them and cheeseburger for me. Kakak saw the burger and asked sapa punyer. I cakap makanla...die pon makan. Sampai separuh then die ckp kenyang. Lepas I setel baju2 diorg utk nursery, I pon makan. Kakak cakap dia saje tinggalkan separuh burger tuh utk I. Terkedu I..I cakap kakak makanla...mama kenyang. Then, kakak amik makan. Dia tanye mama makan apa. I cakap takpela pandai2la mama beli nanti. Sebak hati nie bila your 6yo daughter dah start considering others. Then, I terus hantar diorg kt nursery. Hampeh tol orang nursery tu macam terpinga2 plak dah. Padahal I dah ckp dekat Ms Tian tu. So ade aunty tu amik diorg tanye susu, baju etc so I drop kan my number and left. Tetiba hati rasa tak sedap. Tak tahu kenapa. Mungkin sebab nursery tuh teramat asing bagi diorg and some more non muslim. I hanya drop until 6 pm then I turun amik diorg and terus pegi bilik mandi etc and kuar balik utk fetch Muadz.

I tahu AlyaMyra both independent tapi ntah kenapa hati nie rasa bersalah sangat. Kalau tak kerana cuti dah takde, I would apply 1 week leave senang xyah pening2. Lagipon this week last week of school so I taknak Kakak miss the last moments dengan her kindy friends and teachers. Siap buat kad untuk all the teachers. Next year, she will be in Standard 1. I rasa I cam xpuas main dgn kakak. Maybe masa tuh I ada maid so byk masa kakak habis dengan maid. Lepas tuh dah ada adik (I conceived masa kakak 11/2yo). Gastric I macam dh ok. Dah takde pening2,loya2 and mabuk. (ngalahkan orang peknen plak dah...) However, The stress week will not ends here cause MD will be away another week to Dubai early December pulak dah. Tak tahu plan macammana plak masa tu. Sekali fikir rasa nak berenti duduk rumah je. Tapi bile 3-4 kali fikir takde pulak duit extra untuk pegi bercuti atau beli apa2 yg bebudak nak kan. Some more, benefit on medical is on me as MD is a freelancer so takdela medical benefit. Teruk jugak nak bayau puluh2 hinggit setiap kali pegi klinik. Kalau ada insurans kad company tuh bulela save duit utk beli lipstick ke....(eh???)